I'm A gOd-MoThEr!

Kendyl's Baptism

On my June 22nd post, I commented that I just became a God-Mother over the weekend! I forgot my camera at home; thus, had no pictures to share. My God-daughter's mother (aka long-time childhood friend) came prepared with boyfriend photographer in hand, lol. So, here are a few pics from my God-daughter's, Kendyl's big day!

Recap:
When I was first asked to be her God-mother I was delighted and said YES! Afterwards, I realized I really didn't know Baptism Etiquette. I didn't know what the responsibilities of the God-mother were except for the biggest part which is to take care of the child if anything ever happened to her parents. After a Google search (yes, you can laugh at me), I realized that all I was really required to do was be supportive with her being blessed/baptized. I also got her a goodie bag filled with candy, a baby rosary bracelet with her birthstones and her first little prayer book. Her big sister Kylie just graduated kindergarten so I gave her a goodie bag, too, but hers from filled with candy and 1st grade summer workbooks (that's the school psychologist in me, always thinking of learning goals, lol). Both girls were really excited about their gifts.

Kendyl was have a very "shy" kind of day and wanted to hide behind her hair and in her mommy's shoulder while at the church. In the photo above that is me, Danielle (Kendyl's mommy), my god-daughter Kendyl in her mommy's arms, her big sister-Kylie, and her uncle Brandon (aka God-father). Oh, I should not forget to mention that my daughter is also in this picture in my belly bump :)

I decided to include this picture because it is one that you can actually see Kendyl's face but also it is the moment that her mother receives a rose for motherhood from the church. Motherhood is one of the greatest achievement a women can be recognized for and I can't wait to join in on this adventure/rite of passage very soon.

MoMmY bLuEs

Sometimes, I just get overwhelmed with the littlest things, I call this my mommy blues. I can be fine the whole day but something will set me off and put me in a "mood". When that happens I am not nice to those around me and may say things I may not mean or use a tone that they don't deserve. It really sucks to feel that way but I can't change it right at that moment and it makes me feel bad after each interaction that I just wanna cry. This doesn't happen that often so I can't really complain that much about it but it bothers me none the less.

Example:

Someone will call my house-line and my phone decides to hang up on them twice. They keep calling which bugs me cause I'm trying to call them back on my cell phone. We finally touch base but I'm in my mood now. So, instead of explaining that my house-line is retarded and isn't working properly, I kinda yell at the person and explained they should have called my cell if they weren't successful with the house-line. What ever they called me for now to me at that time is not important, it's a bother and everything they say is irritating. So, I give one word answers and basically am rude the whole conversation so I can hang up. Afterwards, I find myself evaluating my behavior and the reasoning behind such an interaction and my world comes crashing down, I am now upset that I am overreacting to the little things that should not matter. I am upset because my baby probably feels me upset, I am upset cause I feel like no one can understand, and I am upset for being upset, ugh. Crying is a sense of release for me and when I'm done I can finally regroup and feel better.

I know this is probably common for mothers-to-be but it doesn't mean I like it (I'm sure no one enjoys this feeling/emotion/reaction), I actually hate it! For someone who tends to be a strong person, it is a weakness!

Do you get the Mommy Blues? If so, how do you cope?

NeW tOy!

Just checked the mail today and found my daughter's new toy that I won a couple weeks ago on a mommy site (Mamaslittlehelper.org) that I follow. YAY!!


I won their giveaway from Discovery Toy company and was able to choose the toy of my choice from their catalog. I decided to pick the "Baby Grooves" toy. It's a musical instrument set. It promotes sensory stimulation, eye-hand coordination, and musical awareness. It even comes with a Play-Along CD and Parent Teaching Guide. I'm really excited about it, I know I'm silly but I just can't wait to enjoy learning time activities that are fun with my daughter. I'm sure watching her learn and develop will be such a thrill for me. Unfortunately, she won't be able to play with it until she is 6 months old but I'm still excited about the new toy.


Do you have a kids toy that your excited about or can recommend for new parents?

ThAnKfUL tHuRsDaY

Today, I am thankful...

• ...for my family and friends; without them I would not be the person I am today. They drive me crazy at times but at the end of the day I still love them.  

• I am sorry that my sister is hurting today as she has lost a dear friend to her. However, I am thankful that this person has positively impacted so many lives in so many ways while she was with us. She will be missed. 

• ....that my baby is still "baking" in my "oven" and that she is doing well.

• ...for my NEW LG 3-Door French Door Refrigerator that was delivered this beautiful morning! I've been wanting a new fridge since we bought our home last year. I finally convinced my hubby that we needed a new one since I plan on breastfeeding and it is important to have a fridge you can count on to store our daughter's future meals. Doesn't it look awesome?

• ...for things have have received from friends; thus far, for my daughter. I have loads of baby's clothes to sort though. 

• ...for the internet so that I can keep in touch with those who I care for, blog, kill time, waste time (lol, usually on facebook), and researching stuff all day because I love google. 

• Lastly, I am thankful for the last Roman Nougat chocolate I am currently eating from my Russell Stover chocolate box (My god-daughter gave me this box as a gift, YUM). It is my favorite chocolate from that collection, mmmmm. 

What are you thankful for today?

RaNdOm WeDnEsDaY

30 weeks 

30 weeks exposed

 
Can't believe I only have less than 10 weeks left of my pregnancy to go until we get to meet our little girl. How time flies by as you get older...I still feel unprepared for her arrival. Crib and mattress should be here mid-July, hopefully, she doesn't decide to come early so I can get her room decorated and set-up for her. Oh, how she will turn my world upside down---I can't wait!

PrOgReSsIoN nOtEs: 30 weeks

How far along? 30 weeks 2 days
Gender: Little GIRL!! Check out her first little pair of shoes she got from my BFF, Ashley! Super cute even though I don't really love pink, I'm growing to like it more and more with all the cute little girly things I find. 


Total weight gain: Starting weight: 127 lbs.  Current weight: 152 lbs.  Total weight gain: 25lbs.

Maternity clothes? I am wearing a mix of maternity clothes and my own still. The belly band has made me feel less fat as it allows me to wear my favorite "regular" jeans without buttoning them. It is a "must have". I have noticed it is especially hard to find formal maternity dresses. I have a wedding to go to soon and I couldn't find a single dress that was flattering. Most dresses are ugly and they all are black, which I normally wouldn't mind but I want some color in my life. So, I'm stuck with a dress that I just bought in a BIGGER size that is not maternity.


Sleeping Habits: So, I am back to getting up in the middle of the night for a stroll to the bathroom, gotta love the active bladder. My little brother just moved in with us for the summer, so hubby and I are back to sleeping together, we'll see how long this lasts.


Best moment this week:  This past week, my family was able to hear our daughter's heartbeat with our heart monitor. Everyone was super excited, especially my dad :) Another favorite moment was that I got to baptize my childhood friend's daughter making me a "God-mother"! 


Movement: Baby Weller loves to kick me in my ribs at times. She lays low and has been treating me well. 

Belly Button in or out? I'm still an inny. My belly button ring is still gone, although from time to time I check to see if the hole is closed yet--it is not. 

What I miss: I'm starting to miss blue cheese with my wings, on my salad, and on my burger. I still want a beer...I keep telling myself I will be able to have one soon :)

Food Cravings/Aversions: No Aversions. I don't really crave things but I enjoy eating lots of fruit, drinking lots of water and I still love my occasional sweets which usually consist of cookies or something chocolate. 

28 weeks preggo-Photo taken by Ashley Jacobsen Photography (http://www.ashleyjacobsenphotography.com/).

FaThEr'S dAy

Another Father's Day has come and gone. However, this year's father's day has been very memorable for me.

I have always been a Daddy's girl. I love and cherish my dad without even really knowing who he really is, other than my dad. I accept him for all that he is and all that he is not. I have felt his love for me throughout my life without him ever having to speak of those affirmations.

Growing up I have battled with knowing the real him and knowing "his" life story. I have come to the realization that I will never be able to break down a barrier he has created for many years to learn such information. Especially since he has been recently diagnosed with Dementia.  The day will come (hopefully, not too soon) that he may forget his beloved children, etc. This year has been a roller coaster ride for him; as he was in a REALLY bad car accident a few months ago where he had broke all his ribs and was lucky to have survived the accident. His health has been of get concern and he constantly gets diagnosed with something. Thus, I look forward to every chance I get to see my dad or speak to him on the phone. I know the day will come which he will not be there for me to talk to and I fear that day will come too soon.

This past Saturday, I was able to arrange to have dinner with my dad which is a rare occurrence. To add to the rare event, my siblings were able to join me along with my hubby and my brother's daughter, son, and girlfriend. To get all of us in the same place and to have us all get along is extra special (since one of us is always bound to make another pissed off, usually). I am sure my dad was happy to have us in his home enjoying each other's company.

My stepmother made a huge dinner and I do mean HUGE. I was stuffed. Afterwards we all sat around with our full bellies and socialized. For my father's day gift, I gave my dad a "little one" photo album that contained a few pictures of my baby bump, ultrasound pic, etc. so that he can be apart of my pregnancy and my daughter's new world. I even bought my fatal heart monitor and let everyone hear my little baby girl's heart beat. The look on my father's face when he heard my daughter's heartbeat for the first time was priceless. He said, "Whoa, that is really loud" with a big smile on his face. I really can't wait for everyone to meet my daughter, especially my father :)

CyBeR ShOwEr

Okay, so before I begin, I must explain that I belong to a mommies site (www.justmommies.com). Specifically, I am in a group of mother's that are pregnant and are all due in August. So, we decided to have a cyber shower, in which your given a cyber buddy and you have to send them a gift by a certain date. 


I got my cyber shower gift yesterday!!

I haven't had my baby shower yet; thus, it was so exciting to get a package not for my husband for a change, lol. I got the Nature's Baby Shower Gift Bag which is filled with an assortment of vanilla tangerine-scented must-haves for a new baby including a shampoo/body wash, face and body moisturizer, diaper cream and two organic sherpa washcloths. 

Thanks Cyber Buddy, MariyaEvans!!! 

ReGiStRy MaDnEsS

Preparing for any big event in life can be stressful. Especially, planning for the arrival of a new member of your family, aka baby. Since this is my first child it's all a little overwhelming at times. I mean thinking about all the things that you need or want to get for you new addition.

As of now, I have decided that I will TRY to be a mother who gives birth naturally (no induction, C-section, and/or epidural... at least that's the plan) breast feeds, cloth diapers, and makes some of my baby's food. Some may call me crazy or whatever since they have not chosen that road but as with everything in life, I love a challenge.

Lately, I've been driving myself crazy with what kind of things I will be needing for my daughter. I have modified my registry (I decided to register at Baby R Us and Pottery Barn Kids)  many times. Registering for baby stuff is a little different from registering for wedding gifts. Wedding gifts are usually things you want and don't really need but registering for baby stuff is really important so you get items that will help your baby with a variety of activities whether its bathing, feeding, sleeping, etc. You spend a lot of time looking at different types of strollers, car seats, cribs, etc. Researching all these things will drive you crazy at times. At the end of the day, I just want to be  the BEST mother I can for my daughter, I don't care what color she loves (which I know will probably be pink cause I couldn't stand it for years but it is slowly growing on me, lol.), what stroller, car seat, or crib I get. I want her to be happy and LOVE her parents.

At the end of August, all these material things will not matter. My daughter will be here and then I may be blogging about the MaDnEsS of motherhood :)

RaNdOm WeDnEsDaY: nervous nellies and where's my food

Okay, so I've noticed that people are generally nervous for pregnant women. Everyone is worried about the baby, and worried about your well being. It's a time when people will tell you it's okay to sit back, relax, put your feet up and watch tv for hours...because, "you need to rest, its good for the baby and for you."They will tell you its okay to not to do household chores (which my hubby will never say, lol), cooking dinner, and doing 'strenuous' tasks, because, "you're pregnant!"

While I know all these things are true at times, I totally struggle with it. I like being able to do the things I need to get done. I don't like relying on other people to help me. At work, people offer to carry my testing kits to my car and really insist. It makes me a little irritated even though I know they are trying to help. 


Some of the things I get to hear throughout my day are the following:
"Oh MY! You be careful my dear. Take it EASY!"
"Oh sweetie, you really need some help with that."
If I drop something its... 
"Let me get that for you or you really shouldn't be bending down"
Okay, so I'm pregnant!! I will be careful and I'll let ya know when I need help, trust me.


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So, let me share with everyone a laughable moment. 


The other night, me and Ash (BFF aka my talented photographer friend) were at the local bar.  I was soooo hungry so I decided to get something to eat. We were sitting at the bar and I ordered chicken quesadillas and a rootbeer. I get my refreshing rootbeer and a half an hour goes by and I still haven't gotten my food yet.


Okay, so I call over one of my friends who is a bar-back and ask him to check on my order. He signals from the kitchen just two more minutes. Alright, I can wait a little longer, so I think. then I see him bring out the food and place it in front of another couple. After watching other people (6 people to be exact, yes I was counting) get their food. I got soooo pissed and when I get angry I cry so here it comes. My eyes start to water and I look at Ash and next thing I know she is pushing me out of my seat and telling me to go outside for some fresh air. 


OMG!! That came out of nowhere. I couldn't control it. I got all upset over food. I was sooo embarrassed and after I collected myself I entered the bar from another entrance to go refresh in the ladies room and the manager happened to be back there and asked me if I was okay, which I was and told me my food would be out shortly since he was working on it. Deep breath and feeling like a idiot I refreshed in the ladies room and returned to my seat at the bar where the bartender who took my order apologized and insisted he pay for my meal and free rootbeer all night, lol.


I was given bread sticks to hold me over until my food came but when it did it was just what I needed. I just have to say that this thing of not having control of your emotions cause your preggo, sucks! I hope this is just a phase and I won't continue to have emotional breakdowns since my pregnancy has been pleasant thus far....so fingers crossed.


At least, I can laugh at myself :)