Tuesday, January 26, 2010

SoMe NeRvE!

Some people have some nerve. I truly have to control my "jersey" attitude at times and remind myself that I have come along way in life to let what people say bother me. I guess I should explain to help you better understand what I mean. Today, I was socializing with individuals (because I have to, not by choice, aka work related) and we were discussing my pregnancy.

Basically, it all started because Person A announced that she was pregnant, too. However, I spoke to Person A a week ago about my pregnancy and she neglected to share this information (personally, I don't care if you don't want to share this type of information with me since you are not a friend anyway). Person A explained how she normally doesn't like to share this type of information until she is 12 weeks along and knows her baby is healthy. Her plan failed as she is clearly showing at this point. She is only a couple weeks ahead of me (she is due Aug. 11th). As Person A walked away, Person B leaned in and whispered, "so, is the rumor true?". I said, "What rumor?". She said, "Are you pregnant?". I said, "yeah, it's true." She congratulated me and we continued on.

Person A has a big mouth. I didn't tell everyone and their mother because its none of their business. None the less, Person A came back into the room and we all discussed different things about pregnancy. All was fine until I decided to share a comment from another person I worked with. He stated, "Children are enjoyable...when their 28." I explained to him that sucked since I was only 26 and thus I must not even be enjoyable yet. Geez. This statement at the time was a joke and I didn't think twice about it. Well, both ladies (Person A and Person B) chuckled and I decided to be on my way. I was literally behind a border that separates the two rooms when I heard them whisper to each other the following:

Person A: "Did you hear that? She said she was only 26. Oh, my gosh."

Person B: "Yeah, babies having babies, married and all. I can't even imagine. When I was 26 that was far from my mind"

Idiots!! If you are going to talk about someone, at least wait till they leave the area completely or at least act your "old" age that you are and say it to my face. I realize at that moment that I really am more mature than closed minded Person A and B combined (bonus: I have a higher degree than them as well so that makes me feel better). As I explained earlier, some people have some nerve.

Yes, I am 26. But I am also a wife, a sister, a daughter, an aunt, a friend, a role model. I am a high school graduate, a college graduate, and a graduate school graduate (two different degrees). I am many things. Am I less of a person because I am to be a mother?

No! I am not. I am living and after the birth of my baby I will continue living; but me living will have REAL purpose. I will be a MOTHER!

So, those of you out there who will judge me because I am 26 years old and pregnant...F*CK OFF!

Friday, January 15, 2010

Is It NaP tImE yEt?

A week and a half of morning sickness has gone by and I'm so grateful to be able to eat again. I just hope that I don't have to go through that again any time soon. Currently, I have been so tired. I go to bed early at night and I have to take a nap in the middle of my day or I'm sluggish. It is kinda hard to do that when I was working two jobs. So, I had to make some changes. Due to my nausea, tiredness, and food aversions, I decided it was time to leave my waitressing job since I couldn't risk getting sick at work. It wasn't a be change since I only took on that job for extra spending cash.

At the present time, I continue to work on a case by case basis as a school psychologist (which I hope I will be able to continue till the end of the school year). In the meantime, I'm applying for full-time school psychologist positions as they are posted by local school districts but I am faced with the dilemma of knowing I may not even get hired due to me needing maternity leave or the fact that I rather not work during the first two years of my child's development. It's something I struggle with everyday. I've been in school my whole life and I would really love to finally have a permanent position in a school. I think have a full-time job with a really nice salary would make my husband, but mainly myself, feel secure. Don't get me wrong, my husband is doing a great job supporting me now and paying all our bills but he also spends carelessly and I feel if I had a great paying job I wouldn't care about his purchases (i.e. new dvd's, sports cards, etc.) as much.

On another subject, hubby and I went to the Birth Center orientation seminar last Saturday. It was very informative and I think it made hubby understand the concept of a natural birth better. They discussed pain management, birthing techniques, and what happens if there are complications, etc. They showed us a video of a delivery story and then gave us a video tour of the facility considering it was a busy day at the Birth Center (the delivery floor was booked), usually they would allow us on the floor if no one was delivering. At the end of the session, he is now officially on board and excited about our new adventure.

That Monday, we had our first ultrasound. I don't know which was more exciting looking at my baby for the first time on the screen or watching my husband's face light up like never before (well, at least this type of delight was different). According to the ultrasound measurement, I was 7 weeks and 2 days along. They estimated my due date to be August 28th (which is Gary's father's B-day). Well, at least I can be fat during the summer and have an excuse right? The ultrasound lady tried to tell me she wouldn't be able to give a photo at first because her printer was down. Maybe that would be okay for other mothers but for this JERSEY GIRL that was not an option. I made her turn it on and try again and magically it decided to work. That machine knew not to mess with me, lol.

So, I leave this post with a picture of my raspberry for your viewing pleasure :)

Baby Weller at 7 weeks and 2 days

Thursday, January 7, 2010

NeW yEaR...nEw BeGiNnInGs 2010

The hubby and I chose to spend the new year with our friends at our friend's mountain house (in the Poconos). Sounds like fun right? Well, it is usually a weekend full of drinking, eating, more drinking, sleeping, wake up and drink some more. That being said you can see where I might not be so thrilled this time around. None the less, I made the trip with my hubby and drank juice, ate, drank water, slept, and woke up sober. It snowed and everyone took that opportunity to go sledding, "pick-up truck" sledding, snow ball fighting, and building a snowman and attacking it with a potato gun. So, while everyone was drinking and having fun in the snow including my hubby, I decided to bring my Kindle and read the "Lovely Bones" (which is a movie that I plan on seeing) during my stay. This winter, I was really looking forward to going snowboarding guess I' going to have to put that on hold for next year.

(Side bar: I found the book not all exciting considering all the "hype" it has been getting. I'm sure the movie will be better.)

So, the new year started whether I drank champagne or not (who knew?). This year I started the year with my favorite... sparkling apple cider, yay! On the way home from the mountains, hubby made my day. We stopped at our favorite place, Callie's Candy Kitchen, where every valentine's day he orders me the best dark choc. covered strawberries from there. I love this place.

On another note, if anyone told me that I would begin the new year with morning sickness, I would tell them they could have all my choc. covered strawberries for the whole year if I could skip that side effect of my pregnancy. OMG, this constant nausea throughout my day is the worst feeling. I hate having no appetite and being tired. I am by no means a picky eater, I like everything!! But of course, things I once found so appetizing (i.e steak) can no longer be in the same room as I :( I find myself "craving" certain items and think about calling the hubby and telling him he needs to bring "it" home or else, lol. But I have restrained myself thus far, I'm sure my restraint won't last long.

So, I lift my shot glass (filled with OJ, of course) and hope that morning sickness leaves my life forever! HAPPY 2010!